It’s scary to write those words. Of course, I am excited but there is definitely fear. If you’re new to my story, I’ve spent almost 5 years trying to have a baby. My journey has led to a PCOS diagnosis, two missed miscarriages, and now (hopefully) my double rainbow baby. 🌈🌈
It hasn’t been easy enjoying this pregnancy after two losses. My emotions have been a rollercoaster, to say the least, and I’ve learned that the best way for me to handle those emotions is just taking it one day at a time.
Having experienced loss has really made me more aware of how I approach and talk about this pregnancy. In the weeks leading up to this announcement I kept thinking, “How can I share my news and not upset the women in my life that I know are struggling?” I remember all too well the feelings of resentment that would come up every time a pregnancy announcement would appear, and the last thing I wanted to do was cause someone else any of those feelings.
I’ve connected with so many women who have gone and/or continue to go through the struggles of having a baby. I know the pain all too well. I see you, I feel you, and I love you. I don’t deserve this any more than you do. What you’re going through is really hard and all your feelings are valid. Your story is still being written, and my hope is that mine gives you a tiny bit of encouragement.
Despite all my fears and anxieties, we are so happy and grateful. I’m blessed to have an incredible wellness team behind me as well as the support, love, and prayers of friends and family. The last couple of years have been rough, and I want to say thank you to every person that has prayed for and encouraged us along the way. Thank you to those of you that have given me a safe space to open my heart and being a shoulder to cry on. It means the world to me, and knowing that this baby is so incredibly loved and prayed for gives us the courage to keep going.
Until the next appointment. 💗