Life

Lily Mae: One Month

Good Morning From Lily
4 Days Old
6 Days Old
Sleepy girl in our bed
Breakfast at Pushkin's
Sleeping on Mama's desk
Awake and aware
Her first bath! She peed all over me right before I put here in there. 😂
Yawn!
Chillin in her crib
Baby Dreams
Contemplating her next poop
3 weeks old
Morning snuggles with Daddy
9lbs 7oz
Sleeping Lily
Morning chill time
A smile!
Rainbow Baby

It seems like just yesterday Lily was placed in my arms, and yet here we are one month later. She’s grown so much which has made me both happy and anxious. Happy because she’s right on par with her growth but anxious because I want her to stay my little baby forever. People keep saying, “I can’t wait until she is old enough to do/say XYZ!” to which I respond, “I can wait.” I want to soak up all these moments as long as I can.

Almost every day I’ve cried at least once because I am in awe of her and am so grateful I was able to bring her to term. It feels like I am riding the wave of relief. They say pregnancy is supposed to make you emotional, but I feel like my emotions have been kicked up a notch since becoming a parent.

I had a moment where I was cradling her and I said to her, “This is the part of the day where Mommy tells you how much she loves you and how grateful she is you’re here and starts crying.” Sure enough, I started to tear up as I said this, and she reaches up to touch my cheek. 😭 It was so surreal. How many times I’ve sat in that same chair wondering if I’d get to hold a baby, and now I am sitting in this chair daily feeding and loving on her.

Sleep 😴

All things considered, she’s a pretty easy sleeper. When she was born we had to wake her up to feed otherwise she’d sleep right through. She’ll sleep 3-4 hours so at best we’ll have to get up 1-2 times to feed her in the middle of the night. She is a noisy sleeper though! She coos and grunts, and sometimes she’ll wake up and cry for 1-2 seconds then go right back to sleep as if nothing happened. Sometimes it’s a cue that she’s peed. 😆

Things I’m Loving

  • SNOO Smart Sleeper Bassinet – I remember hearing about this 3 years ago when it was THE baby product amongst influencers. Now you can rent it which is what we’re doing since ideally you want to wean them off around 3 months. This thing is awesome and does wonders for her sleep!
  • Nanit Video Monitor – Joshua did a lot of research on baby monitors, and this one came out on top. It has great video quality, and it’s secure. We also liked that it came with a stand so we can use it in the bedroom right now over the SNOO and then move it to the nursery later on. Plus since we created our registry on Babylist we got a great deal on it between all the gift cards and registry discount.

Feeding

I came into this pregnancy full prepared that I might not be able to breastfeed. I had a reduction surgery back in 2008 in which my surgeon emphasized the risks, and having PCOS would also increase my risk for low milk supply.

While I have been able to breastfeed, it’s been in tandem with formula since my supply is low. She’s primarily on formula with boob milk acting more as an appetizer/dessert. Of course I would have love to exclusively breastfeed, but it’s just not in the cards for us and that’s totally okay. Fed is best. ✌🏼

Things I’m Loving

  • Lactation cookies – These gluten-free cookies are amazing, and I’ve made a batch of them every week. They make a great snack and are very filling, which come in handy when I don’t have time to eat.
  • Pink Stork Lactation Herbal Mint tea – I’m a big tea drinker, and it’s been nice to sip on this tea throughout the day. It works hot or cold which can be convenient because sometimes my tea ends up getting cold when I have to go take care of baby.
  • Boppy Pillow – My sis got this for me as a shower gift, and it’s helpful for both breastfeeding and bottle feeding.

Other Milestones/Moments

  • She’s lifting her head on her own
  • She had her first blowout followed her first projectile poop 💩
  • She went with me to my chiropractor for my postpartum adjustment and got her first adjustment
  • Went on her first road trip. It was a small day trip to the Bay Area, but it was the longest she had been in the car. She handled it like a champ!
  • By the end of four weeks she transitioned out of her newborn clothes into 0-3 months and is now wearing size 1 diapers!

The Furbabies

A lot of people have asked how my animals are handling a micro human in the house. I’m happy to report they’re all handling it very well. The cats don’t really care. In fact, they seem to think certain baby items, like the DockATot and the Pack ‘n Play are for them. 😹

Bella thinks the DockATot is a new bed for her
Izzie in the Pack 'n Play

Tucker is very protective and attentive. Anytime Lily starts crying he looks to us to make sure we’re taking care of her. If one of us is out of the room he’ll run around trying to find the other person. It’s like he wants all hands on deck to take care of baby, and it’s really cute!

Mr. Big, however, is getting used to not being the baby anymore. He’s a little sulky these days because someone else is getting constant cuddles and food.

Mr. Big is not sure

He still gets plenty of love and attention, and I definitely wouldn’t say the attention has reduced. At the end of the day he still gets to sleep in bed with us. He just gets jealous easily because he’s used to being the center of attention.

How are you doing?

Tired. Even though Joshua helps out with the night shifts, I still wake up, so we’re both just as tired. It’s hard to nap during the day because lately she has been feeding nonstop, so I maybe get 2-3 hours in the day where I can catch up on things. A lot of days I won’t get to have breakfast if I don’t make a shake ahead of time, and my lunches happen around 2pm/3pm.

Joshua gets six weeks of paternity leave, but he’s breaking it up instead of taking it all at once. He took three weeks when she was born, so I’ve been on my own for the past week. It’s a little harder when he’s not around because it means sometimes I have to put her down crying while I go to the bathroom or make food for her.

Aside from that, I’m doing good. Really, I am. 😄 I healed pretty well, and I have my postpartum checkup with my doctor next week. I’m on a healing supplement protocol with my nutritionist, I’m taking my placenta capsules every day, and I’m seeing my chiropractor regularly. I’ve got a great wellness team, not to mention a wonderful husband who helps out however he can. I’m pretty blessed with my support group.

Things I’m Loving

  • DockATot – We’ve gotten so much use out of this as evidence by most of her photos show her hanging out in it. This is so nice when we need to put her down and want her to be near us. We’ve used it on the couch while watching TV, on the table while we eat dinner, on the bed when I need to get ready, etc. and it’s super convenient.
  • Moby wrap – This is for when I don’t feel like using the carrier when I’m out or when she just wants to be held but Mama needs to hands. We have the ErgoBaby but it’s adjusted for Joshua, so the Moby wrap makes it much easier and quicker for me.
  • Graco Pack ‘n Play Care Suite Playard – We set this up in the living room, and it makes a great drop-off area when we need to set her down for a minute. We’ll be taking it with us when we travel to Washington next month, so it’ll be her bed and changing table while on vacation.
  • Daily Harvest – With it just being me it’s difficult to get breakfast and sometimes lunch in during the day. Having these organic smoothies and harvest bowls make it easy when I do get a chance to make food. They’re healthy, yummy, and all live in the freezer until I need to make them.

A Special Playlist

The past year I’ve worked on a playlist of songs that have represented my journey to Lily. It starts with songs that cover my two losses and the grief I experienced leading into songs of hope and love. Needless to say, I personally cannot listen to this playlist without bawling my eyes out.

Putting this together was therapeutic for me and listening to it helped get me through some of those anxious moments I experienced during my pregnancy. I hope it can do the same for anyone else. 🌈


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